Journey
to the Past
A
young Canadian searches for his roots in
By
Adrian Lysenko
So many untold stories of Ukrainians were
lost during the tumultuous events of the last century or were suppressed behind
the iron curtain. As a young Canadian
whose roots are in
With this purpose in
mind, I set off for a month-long visit to
After arriving in
Before I left, I had
interviewed my grandmother, Nina, about my grandfather’s life. I found out
that, like many Ukrainians during the Stalin’s reign of terror, my family
suffered on account of their longing for a national identity. My grandmother
told me that Mykola’s father, Vasyl, a respected accountant, was arrested by
the NKVD (Soviet secret police) in 1937. Mykola, along with his older brother
Petro and mother Kateryna witnessed the arrest one night in their home.
Vasyl was sent to
Demoralized and starved,
Mykola struggled to stay alive in the camp, which was plagued by disease and
death. He, along with the two other Ukrainians he had been captured with,
formulated an escape plan. While fleeing, one of his companions was shot and
killed while he and the other Ukrainian survived by diving into a river. They
separated, and Mykola returned to Zolotonosha to find it under Nazi rule.
Realizing that the Nazis
were disbanding and the Soviets would soon return, Mykola left Zolotonosha for
After the war, Mykola
stayed in a Displaced Persons’ camp in
The
In 1953 my father, George
Lysenko, was born in
To get to my grandfather’s
place of birth, Zolotonosha, I traveled by train 15 hours with Andriy from Lviv
to Cherkasy. Arriving on a damp and dreary morning we then went by bus
eastwards across the
My first visit to
Upon arriving in
Zolotonosha, we searched for the house where my grandfather was born and
raised. Our only clue was an envelope
with the address on it my grandmother had given me.
Finally, we found the
house; in front, in a chair was an old woman, Anna Lysenko (Mykola’s
sister-in-law). The 86-years-old Anna was confused about who I was, even after
Andriy’s explanation. Hesitantly, she
invited us inside for tea. She didn’t ask for our names until half-way through
the visit.
Inside, the house I could
feel my grandfather’s presence, especially once I saw his paintings on the
wall. He had been an avid painter his entire life; most of his oil paintings
were of landscapes of rivers or the countryside.
We all sat down, and Anna
showed us various photographs, mostly of her husband Petro, who passed away in
1998. One of the first things she said to me once we sat down was that I look
like Mykola. We stumbled upon a photograph of my family that my grandmother had
given Anna during her trip to
Anna then offered to make
us breakfast. Realizing that she didn’t have much food, we found out where the
nearest store was and went there to purchase some bread, kolbassa, butter, wine
and chocolates. We returned to the house and had breakfast.
I then began asking Anna
questions about our family. She spoke mostly about Petro, telling me that he
was a gentle and patient man like Mykola.
Andriy had to translate
my questions as well as her responses because Anna only spoke Russian. She was
born near the
Later, we took a taxi
with Anna to the cemetery to visit the graves of Petro and other family members.
While we were there, the sun emerged from behind the clouds, the only time
during our whole visit. We went back to the house where we had an emotional
farewell. One of the last things Anna said to me was, “When you return it will
be to bury me.”
At one point during our
visit Andriy asked me in English if this is what I had expected. I told him I
had not known what to expect, not even if my grandfather's house would still be
standing.
My grandfather never
talked about his past to me. He was a peaceful man who loved his family very
much. The whole time being in Zolotonosha felt surreal; it was as if I were
walking in the past or in a dream. I
imagined my grandfather as a young man walking on the roads and fishing in the
rivers that I saw.
During my last moments in
Zolotonosha, I felt very indecisive. Anna invited us to stay longer; a part of
me wanted to stay and sleep in the same room my grandfather had, but another
side wanted to leave. I did not want us
to inconvenience Anna, who had a hard time moving about, and seeing the
conditions of the town had depressed me.
I realized how fortunate
I was for having been born and raised in
Adrian Lysenko is a
Toronto-based filmmaker.