“I’d rather be there than here”

Two years ago, Karmin Dumyn-Sannuto visited Ukraine for the first time and fell in love with the place. Born in Canada into an Italian-Ukrainian household, Karmin makes a strong case for feeling Ukrainian national pride. 

Karmin Dumyn-Sannuto


Everyone should get back to his or her roots. A good way to start is by learning about where one’s parents or grandparents came from. But I would rather see people getting back to their roots in a far more literal way. A number of people in my age group who profess their pride in their ancestors’ country of origin have never actually been there. So why is it they have this measure of pride? Surely, in many cases the closest they’ve ever been to “their” country is staring blankly at a photograph that some relative brought back from their trip many years ago. It comes down to a question of how people are brought up in childhood. Being raised in a predominantly Ukrainian household, I have always had some measure of pride in the country from which my grandparents emigrated. I would often get into heated debates with fellow classmates. Not until this summer, when the opportunity to get back to my roots presented itself, did I realize just how much I had to be proud of. It was in the city of Lviv, on the westernmost edge of Ukraine, that I learned more about what it truly meant to be Ukrainian in two weeks than I would have thought possible in twenty years of living in Canada.

The first thing one might notice upon arriving in Lviv would be that until you reached the city centre, everything seems to be about 15 years behind. Having been built literally in the middle of nowhere, the airport is surrounded by a low, wooden fence. This stops the cows that belong to the farmer next door from wandering onto the runway. I have to admit: that first view of my country was somewhat disappointing. On the drive to my cousin’s apartment, I noticed that buildings in the city were either of immaculate design and looked like they had been built yesterday, or that they were old, dilapidated structures that appeared ready to collapse should to much pressure be laid upon them. My cousin, Ihor, explained that the pleasant buildings were usually examples of centuries old Austrian architecture that would probably stand for as long as the city did. The old soviet regime however, built the others. Many people moved to the cities during Stalin’s reign, I discovered. To accommodate the city’s growing population, the regime built low-grade public housing that still stands because of a lack of funds for building something better. Ihor then described how many of Ukraine’s neighbours had at some point in time or other added various portions of the country to their own territory. It was only then that I realized why we Ukrainians hate being called Russians. It insults us in a way that says we have no culture of our own. What struck me most was that despite the times when my country was part of Russia, Austria, Poland, Lithuania, or some other oppressor, we managed to keep our traditions, religion and language alive. Furthermore, every time Ukrainians lost the battle or the war, which happened all too frequently, they got right back up again and kept fighting. 

I had been completely unaware of my country’s struggle in the face of adversity. My newfound knowledge of it almost immediately resulted in an increase in national pride. I soon discovered that this pride was not shared by many here. One day while walking through the city centre, I stumbled across what other passersby were distastefully referring to as a “propaganda rally”. After listening in for a moment, I learned that this was a gathering of patriotic flag-wavers who were declaring that “We don’t need the Russians.” What saddened me about this sight was that of the 830,000 citizens of Lviv, only a few hundred were there to support the whole reason behind Ukraine’s own declaration of Independence. It made me think that were I to move to Ukraine, I would be one of those “lost souls” as the rest of the population deemed them, standing in the square waving a flag while trying to figure out why nobody else really cared. This did little to stop my growing patriotism. In fact it did quite the opposite. Now I think to myself, if 830,000 people are not interested in displaying the love they have for their country just one day out of the year, then it is up to the other 300 of us to do so with increased fervour whenever we can. 

About a year ago, I happened across a man selling flags on the street. You can imagine my surprise when I spotted, among his extraordinarily limited selection, a Ukrainian one. While parting with $10 for a poorly made piece of cloth seemed a bit steep at the time, it was probably the best ten bucks I ever spent. I promptly hung the flag in my room with little understanding for what it really meant. I knew the yellow was representative of Ukraine’s wheat fields, and the blue of its sky. I had no idea that together they also represented triumph. Not so much in the sense of the word most people would imagine, but a more subtle type of triumph; one that was, and still is, celebrated every day that Ukraine remains a sovereign country. It is a triumph of rising from the ashes, of always fighting for something even when you get the “hell” beaten out you almost every time, and most importantly of being proud of your country even when it seems like you don’t have one.

Compared to what we are used to here in Canada, conditions in Ukraine would probably seem, to most of us, pitiable. Much of the population is poor, and those who do not have to resort to begging or selling peanuts on the street can take little comfort in the fact that they will have few opportunities for dragging themselves out of their present income bracket. Thankfully, this is only going to be true for the last generation. One day after I came back from shopping, I remarked to Ihor about how many people, particularly the older ones, had been giving me dirty looks. Not caring much for tourists back home, I suspected that most people in Ukraine would feel the same way. I had assumed it was because of my brand name clothing that they tagged me a foreigner. Ihor told me that it was not just my clothing, or the fact that I looked more Italian than Ukrainian, but because of the way I carried myself. Many people there, especially those of the old generation, walk around slumped over, like they’ve given up on life. Most have no confidence in themselves or anybody else. They seem resentful towards the younger people for having advantages they never did during their youth. “It’s a sad state of affairs when so many people lack the confidence they so sorely need,” I thought to myself. “But don’t worry,” Ihor replied, as if in response to my thoughts, “It’s getting better.”

To enter Ukraine today, one still needs a visa. I have been assured that this will end, probably within the next decade. It is a slow start but things have to begin somewhere. Before I left, my mother began packing into my suitcase a number of items she though I might need: toilet paper, Kleenex, soap, shampoo, and a variety of other everyday products. She told me she was packing these for me because when she went to Ukraine years ago, their toilet paper was apparently made of the same material as the newspaper, and that items such as shampoo and Kleenex were non-existent luxuries. I scoffed at the ridiculous notion that there would be no shampoo in Ukraine. And rightly so. I found upon my arrival, as my mother was amazed to learn, that I had all the comforts of home. Things had changed radically in the last 20 years and it seemed that they were going to keep changing, hopefully, only for the better. Today I have a much better understanding of what it means to be Ukrainian. The flag hanging above my desk has more meaning to me now than ever before and consequently, it is the first thing I point out to anybody entering my room for the first time. I am of course, a Canadian citizen, though not an especially patriotic one. I wouldn’t buy a Canadian flag to hang on my wall, not because I don’t care, but because I have much more to be proud of regarding my Ukrainian heritage than I do my Canadian. My trip made me realize just what it means to have pride in one’s country. It has shaped the way I think now in the sense that I don’t quite understand people who don’t know about their ethnic background, or those who don’t care. All people should get back their roots, at least once in their lives. Whether or not it will change them in such a profound way as it did me is unforeseeable, but at least they tried. Oh yes, I’m a Canadian. But first and foremost I’m a Ukrainian, and given the choice, I’d rather be there than here.

Karmin returned to Ukraine this summer and is planning to study history there.